30.12.10

Feel the love

You know it's a crush, when he texted, you smiled.

You know its more than that, when he texted and you giggled
Even at the simplest statement (:

13.12.10

One step at a time

I've already let the past go.
Now I am ready.

22.11.10

Life is tough

Please stop mocking me :(
It hurts, everytime

20.2.10

Not knowing

It sucks.
It sucks to feel helpless.
It sucks to not know.

11.2.10

Come back to me

Come back to me

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

I can't get close if your not there
I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can't fix you i can't save you
Its something you have to do

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me

10.2.10

Babysitting for a day

I'm babysitting my cousin's kid. An adorable 8 months old Husna.
While her parents, my aunt (her grandmama) and my mom are away, checking out their new house, I voluntarily stayed at home, watching her sleep.

Babies,
They are such beauuuutiful creatures; with their tiny little fingers and toes; and their teeth-less smiles- can make one's day as bright as the sun. Husna did just that :)

I'm sure I'll have my own some day but at the moment, I am happy babysitting for several hours. The thought of waking up at the wee hours in the morning, breastfeeding and changing diapers etc doesn't seem inviting, well at least for me, today at 24 (Gosh, that's old :/)

However, I am happy for my cousins and friends who will or already have their own kids. And I am more than happy to play with their babies, again, for a couple of hours, and that's about it. I guess, it's a sign that I'm not ready to be a Mom or maybe, it comes naturally when that beautiful little creature enters your life. Oh well, that is for me to find out and for you to see in the future.

3.11.09

Hatred is strong

Why so much hatred?

I'm amazed with human emotion: to hate, to love and to ignore. I must say, each entitles to his/ her feeling, no doubt.
But I am even more fascinated with human behaviour.
This brings me to the Wh- questions
Who mold it? What shape it? Why is one behave as such?
I know, psychology is not my strength, but experience definitely has taught me a lot.

I was one told by someone, I am a pretty straightforward person, doesn't beat around the bush to express my intention. Well, for some, that might not be favourable; being offended, for others, You nail it! Point noted!

At this instance, similar to feelings, each individual has his own weird/ quirky behaviour. Again, one is entitled to behave as he wants to; which leads to my next point, when does behaviour become acceptable/ not in one's eyes?

In my opinion,
All boils down to the environment and people around you.
If the environment is surrounded with beings that are not comfortable with straightforward people like me, then they end up, being hurt or offended. If they felt as such, I apologised*

*there is no fault at apologising to someone, even for the tiniest mistake, because, who knows, you end up, not having the chance to do so tomorrow and regretting- better now than never

Anyways, again, the environment you are in plays a vital part in perceiving whether your behaviour is acceptable or not.

I know, I am of no position, to question one's behaviour, because I myself, is flawed.
But do watch your behaviour, to think before you act or say because, it reflects of who you are inside.
It is a mirror of your intentions.
Remember, you can't take them back once you've blurted them out, and it is forever scared.

"Do not do unto others as you would that they should do unto you"

My intentions are genuine, with no grudges. So, do not take it the wrong way.

Grow up, only then you can forgive and forget

May Allah bless us